Knowing it was a hopeless voyage, why did I get on this ship?
Was it merely for the lure, the gratification, the thrill?
What happens when the passengers desert me?
What happens when I hit the dead end, no shore beneath my feet?
What happens when it all breaks down, the vessel, the sails?
What happens when all there’s left are tears and sighs and wails..?
Guess I knew I’d be the loser in the end…
I feel too much, I’m going to be heart broken…
In this doomed voyage what can I do but drown,
unable to swim, unable to grapple, and carry on?
Why, oh why did I follow the will o’ the wisp?
Why, oh why did I get on this forbidden ship?
Sure it gave me treasures worth a lifetime,
but when it’s all over, will I still be fine?
Why is there something so wrong and dark in me?
Why does playing with fire always seem like my thing?
Danger has for too long now followed me,
and I’ve guided it, knowing I’ll be hurt eventually.
Everything is alright by the morning light,
but I’m tormented by demons, in the cover of night.
And I lose – I always lose to their might,
I’m done for now, I’ve lost the fight…
That this pain can be turned to art, is my only solace,
but tell me heart, did I bargain for this pain in the first place?
No – all I went seeking were healing and peace,
and now I’m afraid I’ve fallen from grace…
I never wanted pain, I only wanted peace,
so I made a deal with the devil
and it came with a price.
And now the time has come for that price to be paid,
And the devil reveals to me, that the price –
© Isha Garg
Doodle by Isha Garg